Life update…things have been fought but the storm has passed with thankfully not too much damage. Coach says we will be ready, so WE WILL BE READY.
Last weeks check in I weighed in at a high 138.6 lbs and an extra 1/2 inch on my waist. After my job trauma and trying to get back in my feet financially, I’m happy to say I’m back at my old job and thriving!
However just as I was recovered from that, disaster happens. My precious rescue pup, Gryffindor, started feeling sick. He had diarrhea and so I fed him some chicken and rice which stopped that but then he started vomiting and becoming lethargic. I managed to get a vet appointment somehow and got him in to find he was in extreme kidney failure. No signs or symptoms until it was too late and there was nothing they could do.
I’m not even going to go in to how devastated I was and still am because that would be a whole different blog post. Needless to say I had a few days of eating my feelings and drinking wine, hence the weight skyrocket.
After that weekend I am back on track and weight was down, and up and back down. It’s kind have been all over the place which makes me nervous because I’m NPC you need to be much leaner than when I previously competed in OCB.
I’m staying on track and hoping that changes start coming in because with the extra food I ate I have been pushing hard in the gym as well.
My schedule is still far fuller than I’d like it to be, and I have a project I need to get off my plate and that will leave me with nothing to focus on but NASM studying and prep.
So I’ve had a lot on my mind lately but first I want to start with a prep update! I did a little comparison between 4 weeks out this prep vs. last prep and OMG my mind is blown! Even though the scale has gone up this week, I’m still 13 lbs less than I was at this point last prep and LOOK at the difference!
So even when you think you’re not progressing, check your progress pics, that’s what they’re there for! Not only do I look better but my posing has come a long way. I’m still probably sticking to the blue suit again for show day, but I will bring both again just in case!
And here is this weeks check in at 3 weeks out. Even though the scale is still up, Mother Nature came, I haven’t been getting enough sleep and I have had the weight of life on my mind which I will share.
So even though the scale is up, and I’m stressed and feel….constipated….and Mother Nature is still here, looking at these makes me feel good. I’m also still on a refeed, but a little bit lower of one, and have been 100% on plan. I listen to Savana Sharp’s podcast a lot while I do cardio, and she talks a lot about positive energy, the Law of Attraction and Mindset, which are things my coach also really emphasizes and I have a lot of work to do on. My mindset used to be soooo negative. It was doom, gloom, nothing will work out. When I change my mindset, good things happen. When I was doing cardio Friday, Savana talked about The Secret (read the book, must watch the movie!) and it reminded me of an Anne of Green Gables quote:
To me, this makes me think of my job. As most of you know I’ve been a bartender/ wedding photographer/ graphic designer. I graduated with my degree in Graphic Design in 2015 and worked many miserable corporate contract jobs with long commutes and days in a dark cubicle with little activity. Coming home I’d be tired, but I’d try to go to the gym or go running, then cook a healthy (but most likely over-portioned) dinner and drink a bottle of wine.
I will do a whole “My Fitness Journey” post at sometime but for this one I want to just get to the point!
So pre-2020 I was cocktail waitressing, and had about 25 weddings a year I was photographing. I was living on my own, single, making pretty good money. When The 2020 happened and both my jobs were not relevant anymore I became really depressed. What do I do with my life now? I tried applying for graphic design jobs but was unsuccessful. So I just hung out at home, ran a lot and worked out and kept my weight pretty stable even though I was drinking…A LOT.
When I could go back to work I started bartending and cocktail waitressing and money was GOOD. I was on a high, I stopped doing weddings because I just wanted to be at the club all the time and bringing in that cash money. I figured my life plan was so this as long as I was hot enough, photography on the side, save save save, buy a small house or condo, then retire to Florida and do some photography and bartend down there at a traditional place.
Well needless to say, the dynamic at work shifted and all my shifts were taken away and cut in half. On top of that, due to people being more interested in drinking at work then serving the customers, it became VERY slow, so money has been very tight since and I’ve been basically hardly getting by.
So now I’m back to…who am I? What do I do for a career as opposed to hopping from bar job to bar job? I did get a new bar job, but it’s longer hours and still stressful, and I can’t see myself doing it long term (unless I get the day shifts which are short and sweet!) and after my first bikini competition I got thinking….how can I make this lifestyle…my life? I had messages all the time “how did you do it?” “What do you eat?” And I started wondering if it’s possible to make a reasonable living helping people through health and fitness, still have time to workout because I’m not at a traditional 9-5, and live and breathe fitness while helping people achieve what I have. Since my end goal is to move to Florida, I think it would be wonderful to help active 55+ people with fitness (especially fellow golfers work on their game)!
So I signed up for my NASM Certified Personal Trainer and Nutrition Coach courses! This is the first step toward my goals! I’m not sure what exactly I’d like to do in the industry, maybe start as a trainer and nutrition coach, coach online, and then someday direct programs or manage a team or trainers.
My next step is looking into getting my Masters Degree in Nutrition to have a more official title and understanding on how to help people make healthy but tasty choices and see that healthy eating doesn’t have to be gross or boring. I think I’d also like to use my design skills to write and publish cookbooks and healthy eating guides (Creative Eating Like a Bikini Competitor, Easy Clean Eating for Beginners, Eating for Health and Fitness Over 55….just some thoughts, nothing final!) and fitness guides (Fitness For Beginners, The Gym for Beginners) because I know that when I first started I’d just go down the line of gym machines with no clue, and I know a lot of people do that.
Anyway, enough rambling (although getting my thoughts out is why I have this blog hehe) it’s time to have my last snack, get to bed early and start working toward my dreams!
So we are back to being almost 8 weeks out! I’m still hovering around stage weight despite all of the guilty indulgences I’ve had from stress the past week or so. I had half a brownie bomb at work Friday, then cupcakes at a wedding Saturday. Glad I’m no longer drinking my feelings and stresses, but the sugar monster is definitely coming out to play. Checked in with coach on Monday at 136, but then had a lot of 💩 and am back to 134.2. At 5’7” I feel like anything below 130 on me might not look so great and will look too lean.
After being the leanest I’ve ever been, I definitely see areas that need more building so I’m thankful for the extra calories and hope they go straight to pure muscle on my glutes and shoulders! I’ve also been working my abs more because I slacked on them so bad this past year I definitely didn’t have as many lines as others on stage, I was just flat. The good thing was that was the first show and now I can see what’s under all the body fat I had and can see where we need to work!
So we’re definitely in a good place to keep some gains coming and get in some extra credit efforts in the gym!
Off topic, my first blog on here was a ballet blog as an adult ballet dancer! I’ve recently started taking class at home again, even though my floor set up is not ideal, because all of the local classes are week to week instead of having drop in options.
Macros haven’t changed this week and cardio is still 45 min 5 days a week which is much nicer than the hour I was doing 7 weeks out last time because we had so much body fat to lose. Still trying to figure out eating at my new job, but I’ll keep you guys updated with recipes and the bartender bikini prep life as we go!
I’ve had a few chocolate lapses this week because for some reason my cravings are crazy, but trying to get used to being hungry during long shifts and just dealing with it again.
I have seen a change in my waist, abs and glutes for the better while we’ve been eating more than last prep, and I know those are some areas I need to build in. I want to compete as much as possible this year and get that pro card, and see where I can go with this, so the little bites and tastes are being cut. No more “one fry” at work (thankfully temptations aren’t available at my new job!)
I’m ready for change, and will be successful. I will come in tighter and leaner for this show and I will get my pro card!
The number one question I’ve been asked lately “what have you been doing?” “What are you eating?” “Send me everything you eat!” Well friends, that’s why I have this blog! It’s all here!
While on bikini contest prep, I have adhered to macros, workouts and cardio tailored to me by my coach based on how I’m looking/ feeling and show timeline. I will admit that I was NOT 100% compliant until about 2 months before the show, and even then I had a few slip ups.
There is no magic pill. It takes dedication and no excuses. You can’t binge drink and eat pizza every day and expect it to just happen!
Up until about a month before the show I was having one alcoholic drink with dinner with my boyfriend per week. Before that it was a couple per week and maybe a shot or 2 at work (I’m 100% over that now). I cheated on my birthday with lots of wine, lobster ravioli, sushi, lobster rolls and more wine in February. I really doubted I could do any of this for quite a while. I loved my booze, am encouraged to drink at work, and love date nights with my boyfriend! Then one day it just clicked. What am I doing with my life? Do I want to be like these drunk people acting foolish and going nowhere in life? Or do I want to be healthier, feel amazing, change my life, figure out my purpose and true career goals. Well the answer was clear. Immediately, all the leftover Tito’s in my house was poured out. I practiced in the mirror “no thank you, I’m prepping to win a bikini bodybuilding contest” when booze and bad food was shoved in my face at work. At first it was hard, I craved my relaxing glass of wine at the end of the night. I was asked to go out and get wasted by my friends. I said no. I was 100% compliant to Malayna’s guidelines and pulled a 360° turn around (her words)! The weight from quitting drinking alone fell off. The first 10 lbs were easy. After a few weeks I didn’t crave alcohol at all. Even now, after indulging in post show treats and a few glasses of wine, I noted my goal wasn’t to get drunk, but to just enjoy a social drink. I also noted I will 100% take chocolate over wine any day!!! Not drinking alcohol is something I don’t even think about anymore, and I don’t miss it. I never want to act like a fool (it’s a good time to be the only sober one and see the mess take place) or wake up feeling like I got hit by a bus hungover. Your girl has too many goals!
Ok so now that my alcohol speech is over (it really did make a huge difference how I got here) let’s move on.
Since I started working with Malayna, I have been attempting to drink a gallon of water a day as our protocol. Literally, for months it was the hardest dang thing ever! I’ve hit it a few times, but not consistent until probably around February. Like anything, the more I planned for it the easier it got. During peak week I was drinking a gallon and a half a day, so yea the gallon is easy now!
Pick things up and put them down. Heavy things. Don’t be afraid to lift HEAVY (with good form of course)! I’d always go to the gym and lift 5-10 lbs and do hours of cardio because I was afraid of bulking. You will not get bulky! You want those muscles to show when you lose the fat and lifting heavy burns more fat! My coach gives me my workouts tailored to me and my goals. I’ve never missed a workout and have always been 100% in the gym even on vacation and toward the end of prep when I just want to sleep.
No you can’t avoid cardio completely (except in off season, when I was building it was like 10 minutes a day and a 10k step goal) and if you’re prepping for a show it can get intense. My highest cardio of peak week was 90 minutes of incline walking. No HIIT, no sprinting, no running. Just walk. Walking is the best thing to lose weight. Seriously. Most of my prep I was doing 45-75 minutes 6 days a week. This is also mostly my own fault for not complying with the no alcohol thing. This time around we’re starting with 45 min a day and seeing what my weight does post show.
45 min a day is great! I loveeeee a nice sunny day, a good Podcast in my earbuds and a walk around my neighborhood! Those 90 min sessions were friggin tough, but I just had to watch some YouTube and push.
Macros. What’s a macro? A very common question I’ve been asked lately! Macros, or Macronutrients, are Protein, Carbohydrates and Fats that you consume through the day. Micronutrients are vitamins and minerals. My coach sets my Macro goals for me based on what my body is doing and how far out we are. Peak week my carbs got as low as 80 grams a day to dry me out. Currently we’re at 145 grams a day on diet break/ reverse before we push into this next show. Now I see what I’m capable of I’m ready to beat my last package!
Again, there is no magic pill. It takes work, time and dedication. The biggest excuse I hear is I don’t have time. If it’s that important to you to look good, you make time. We all have jobs (I have 3), commitments, bills, etc. The only thing I don’t have to worry about that a lot of people do is kids. But I also know plenty of women who have kids and also compete and live a healthy life for their families and themselves. Put yourself first for once!
Take an hour a week to meal prep for yourself. Put your hair in a messy bun and rock out to some T Swift and cook! My 1 hour meal prep is coming on the blog soon!
Take 10 minutes in the morning and 10 minutes before bed to plan. Failure to plan is planning to fail. Before I go to bed I think of what is left in my fridge, what’s going to go bad, what am I craving, and start thinking of meals for the next day.
Groceries: Make a list! I’ll be providing my grocery store staples on and off prep. I actually find on prep I spend less at the grocery store. Unless I plan on making something special, my meals and groceries are pretty much the same every week.
Workout: Write up a workout plan or find a free one online! I’ll also be blogging and writing up plans for busy people so stay tuned! I love the YouTube workouts by Pamela RF. They’re quick and fun! She even has calendars on her social that tell you exactly what to do. There’s always 10 minutes if you want it bad enough. Start with 30 minutes 3x a week.
Walk: Park farther away, walk to the mailbox, walk the dog (heck, walk the cat, kids, hamster….whatever) walk for 10 minutes at lunch after you eat, walk around the block after dinner. Start with trying to get 5k steps a day, then 6k, then 7k etc!
Water: Go on Amazon and buy a half gallon water bottle. They’re pretty (mines pink!) and easier to carry than a 1 gallon. Try to finish it around 1:00, then fill her up! I use mine to measure and just pour water out of it to make sugar free lemonade, drink my BCAA’s and my greens and reds. Anything to get the water in!
My next post will be a full day of eating, with a video so you can see everything I ate on Wednesday, May 18 while on diet break after my contest.
What is next for me?
I’m not going to lie, prep has got me in such a routine that I almost feel lost without daily checks ins and posing. I guess I’m feeling the “post show blues” even though I’m still on prep. Because we have 10 weeks and I’m starting in a better place. I definitely want to make some tweaks to posing and make it more fluid and dancer-like (seeing as I am a ballet dancer!) and I have some great ideas for my next I-Walk! I started at the gym today even though I didn’t have my heels.
I also have been looking for a new apartment since the rumor around town is that we’re getting a 22% increase I can’t afford by myself. All of my friends are married or live with their boyfriends so a roomate isn’t an option. I spent all day calling apartments and hearing the same thing….we’re full. Even if we weren’t full, we start at $2,000 a month. SERIOUSLY!? Even the ghetto of West Warwick where I’d have to live among druggies is full. Literally everything is FULL. So I had a minor panic attack because since my shifts at work were taken away and the only 2 shifts I have left are really half shifts because they’re shared, and the lack of customer service because everyone is focused on drinking and partying is driving away customers is leaving me almost making less than when I worked full time in graphic design. I had a minor “what am I going to do with my life?!” Meltdown today and came up with some solutions.
1. Weddings are picking up! Yay! I’d like something to do during the week to earn money though.
2. Fitness photo shoots? Travel?
3. Remote design work! It’s everywhere!
4. Custom illustration. Pets, dancers, weddings, whatever. Bikini show day illustration??? I don’t think ANYONE has done that!!
5. NASM- Finish CPT and Nutrition Coach classes! I could do this at my gym during the week since I pretty much live there!
Ok that’s all I have for now. For my background, I have a degree in Fine Art, a degree in graphic design, and have been running my own wedding photography business since 2015. I have more talent and skills and don’t get drunk and give terrible service at a bar where I’m unappreciated (yes I’m being a salty beach, I’m just fed up). I know my worth, and I want to make a difference in peoples lives by helping them find the same Zen I have with living my fittest, healthiest life.
No matter what hurdles I have to face I will do it.
Ok, here’s some tea they don’t tell you about going #2 with a tan. First, don’t Google “how to poop when spray tanned for a bikini competition.” Just don’t. Unless you want to see poop porn. Well, after being kinda constipated all week, stuff started moving show day am. A few times. PANIC! How do I do this. Here how: Hold a wad of TP over the 🐱 in case you get dribbles. Aim toward the back of the bowl. Put a thin layer of TP down in the water to stop splashes. Pray.
Sorry if that was TMI but I hope it helps someone out there! Ok 💩 is done, moving on to packing up because I can’t get extended checkout, and I want to get my big suitcase in the car before I do my hair.
Holy crap it’s hot out!!!
Hair was a success! I use this little thing called the L’ange Duo to curl my hair. It holds the curl and it’s perfect every time. Best $80 or so I’ve ever spent. Curl perfection!
I tried the top on for my blue bikini and Malayna and I decided it was the one. I then wanted to put my whole suit on even though my face looked like a ghost compared to my whole body
Gahhhhhh omg is this real!?!! Ok makeup time! I brought some makeup with me for touch ups in case I messed anything up between the hotel and venu. Thank goodness I did, because (and I’m a little afraid to write this because I don’t want to sound awful but I also wanted to be honest) I very much hated my makeup. My brows were made enormous, like the thickness of two of my brows which I asked to fix but they were still too big. Eyes looked great, but my lashes were glued on halfway up my lid. Not sure if that’s just a show thing, but it felt weird and now all my confidence went down the tube. A few people said it’s because it’s stage makeup, but I’ve been a dancer my whole life and have never had stage makeup like this. Also from fixing the brows a gray smudge I couldn’t fix was on my forehead (Tiffany and Malayna said it wouldn’t show on stage/ camera) but it shows in all my selfies and has to be photoshopped. Next time I will just do my own makeup so I know it’s exactly what I want.
After eating a rice cake and some PB, I headed to the venu. It was a little confusing but I found a little spot to hang out and wait for Tiffany. I sent some check in pictures to Malayna so she could make an eating plan for me. Since it was running late there was plenty of time to relax, eat, pee, get tans touched up and pump up. We made a pump up plan and I laid out my bands, water and pump food.
Ok yea I love myself in royal blue! Already thinking about my next suit, but blue rocks! Getting anxious and jittery for the show, watching Wellness finish and awards, pumping up and running through some posing backstage. It’s almost go time!
Debut is is first! Class A then us in Class B. We are given a quick run down on what to do and how it’s going to work while backstage. I’m wishing I’d brought my trusty cranberry NYX gloss, but oh well. It’s time!
Walking out on stage the first time was not as scary as you would think. I felt ready. I was shaking a bit from jitters and anticipation it was actually happening, but it was not noticeable in the videos. My thoughts on stage were just running through posing, smile, vacuum for your life, look at the judges, be graceful! I was pretty close to center the whole time, which I couldn’t wait to tell my coach. Before I knew it we were done! I was officially a Bikini Bodybuilding Competitor!
Next was novice! They said it was a stacked class and we were up there a longggg time. It legit felt like forever! This time I was moved to the end, but then back in one so I felt like I’d end up in 4th or 5th.
Ok Novice shook my confidence a bit, but finally we had Masters! I felt GREAT during Masters! Tiffany and I were dead center the whole time, her coach even gave me a high 5 after and was like “you two killing it in the middle!” Since all the judging was done (ha, or so I thought. MISTAKE right here that probably cost me my pro card), I wanted to have some water and a rice cake with PB. Omg it’s like I couldn’t stop. Since the day had been delayed so much, I was HUNGRY. Next up, I-walk and awards!
Not my best, I could have definitely added more sass and ballerina-ness to it, but now I know what to expect for next time! Little bobble at the end there, and I could definitely flow better with my arms during all my posing. Again, first show, it’s fine. Now it’s time for awards! I have no idea how any of this works so at this point I’m not expecting anything but I’d be happy with a nice little 5th place medal or 2. Backstage they tell us that Masters and Open has an overall and that’s how you get a Pro Card. The winners of each height class go up again for judging. WHAT. I didn’t expect that. I even made a joke that “good thing I’m not winning because I just ate like 3 rice cakes and PB”. Welp.
3rd Place in Debut!
On to Novice….nothing. Nada. Oh well. kinda bummed because I’d hoped for top 5.
Masters….nothing again (yay Tiffany in 3rd!) wait….no way I got first…nope no way….HOLY CRAP THATS MY NUMBER! 65 IN FIRST PLACE ALICIA LAIRD THATS MEEEEEE!!! Don’t cry don’t cry don’t cry! Wow , this is COOL!
Then I hear the announcer “Alicia don’t go far we’re about to have the overall.” Sinking feeling in my stomach. I shouldn’t have ate that rice cake. Shit.
Ok overall seems to be going good. My posing is better, I’m confident, I got this. Wow I’m about to get a Pro Card on my first show! Nope, I lost. Bummer. I’m still a little meh about that part, but I got 2 trophies and won my class! Time to celebrate the accomplishments and not be bummed!
I’m super excited the show ran late because my boyfriend was coming from work and I saw him in the middle of Novice so he got to see most of the show!
Oh gosh delicious food and wine! Shockingly I didn’t miss wine as much as food. Chocolate especially. I’m still craving chocolate! Well the next day I went to get my frosted coffee rolls from Dunkin which didn’t disappoint!
Ok it’s time to get back to work. This is my last cheat day then we’re back to clean eating and prepping for bing 10 weeks out from the next OCB show, Hall of Fame!
Monday we go back in to a 10 week prep. We got this. We came so far last time we can go farther, better, leaner, next time! I have a lot to do on my abs and glutes, but I know I can do it, even as I start wedding season. Cold prep meals during weddings might be a thing. Ugh. We got this, we got this, WE GOT THIS!!!
So technically Peak Week doesn’t start on a Monday like for some reason my inexperienced brain thought it would!
I’ve already been hungry at work late nights, so I was expecting to get through the weekend with the same macros I’ve had the past couple weeks….wrong!
Macro update, dropped a bit of carbs but also only did 30 minutes of cardio which was a nice break before a push. Ahhhhhh my period is BACK AGAIN! Why does this useless organ need to torture me so???!
I had a lot of energy from the cardio drop, and cleaned my house. Maybe over did it because I got super tired at night and hit the wall fast.
Weight: 138.2 Period from HELLLLLL
Not looking forward to work tonight. Super tired from cardio and lower food. Thought I was going to pass out a few times in the gym. LOW energy, not sure how I’m going to make it until 3 am. Took a nap and just crashed on the couch before work.
Updated: I survived! It as a crappy night though ugh.
Weight: 138.4 period….whyyyyyyy
Exhausted. Trucked through an hour of cardio, came home to eat, walked the dog, finished cardio. ☠️ Work again tonight, Saturdays are usually better so let’s goooo!
It was better! Saw a good friend that I haven’t seen in a while. Got screamed at by a drunk ridiculous co-worker who hates me for no reason. Joy. I’m not in the mood so I just walked away and avoided her. My boyfriend said “does this story end with you punched her in the face?” LOL.
Usually a full rest day but we have 90 min of cardio! Exhausted isn’t even a description. Like I can’t do anything. Everything feels heavy. My period is raging like when I was 14, what is actually happening here!? We don’t have the energy to bleed!!
Normal check in day!
Feeling a little better after a long day of doing nothing but cardio, stretching and relaxing. Cardio is still 90 min today (last day!) with low carbs. Ready to push because I only want my best self out there!
Tired but we’re back to the gym today too! Shoulders and triceps, actually one of my favorite workouts, didn’t go to bad!
Weight: 135.2 Yay! Another drop even with Mother Nature from helllllll
Leg day might be brutal! But this is my last hour of cardio then we start decreasing! My boyfriend grabbed some groceries and things I needed last minute for me since I didn’t have the energy to leave the house. My best friend I haven’t seen in months came over and we watched a movie and I watched her eat sushi while I ate my cod like a good girl haha. Relaxed after. Allergies kicking my BUTT!
Weight: 135.2 no change
Added a few more carbs. 45 min of cardio only wooooooohoooo!!
Have a fun photoshoot tonight! Gotta document the WERK! Tired as hell but at least it’s a fun thing. Trying to prep food and pack essentials since I have to drive for the polygraph tomorrow and Friday am will be busy. Worrying about forgetting things!
Weight: 135.2 feeling leannnn!!
Had the inbody scan at the gym and it said I’m at 10% body fat, and basically am perfect (I guess few people score a 0 in if they need to build muscle or loose fat) so cue vanity 😄
Ok but for real I used to be super confident as a late teen then people were awful to me and said I was a stuck up bitch (considering who it came from I realize it was just jealousy) but there’s nothing wrong with being confident and KIND! Literally nothing. So keep being your confident self. I sure will be, and I really don’t care what they say! I will always be confident, humble, kind and grateful.
After the workout I sewed up the connectors on my green bikini, ate, and then headed to Hyannis to check in and do my polygraph. It was hot here in RI so I wore shorts, well it was cold on the cape so I was glad I brought a hoodie! I was nervous but it was actually super easy and not intimidating at all. I’m glad I went the day before and got it done!
Coming home I ate dinner, continued packing, and did my nails in a basic French for show day.
I do my own dip nails so it’s so easy and convenient to just chill on the couch and watch TV and do nails! Ok off to bed!
HOLY ONE DAY OUT! Ok, I’m feeling it! I’m excited! The thing I’m most nervous about is literally packing all my stuff and getting to my tan on time, then not sweating or otherwise screwing it up after. It’s hot and muggy again, great. Should I bring my little desk fan??? Once I shower I’m going to call the hotel and see if I can get a check in time before my tan at 1:30 so I can get my luggage in and not after the tan because I’m terrified to mess it up and they charge you $75 cash only to fix it. Like wtf. I should have bought a ProTan DIY kit as a backup or for mistakes just in case. Better to be prepared no? Ok, put that in the notes for next time!
Ok morning check in done, finishing cardio after my workout as we speak. I have an hour now to get home, rinse, last exfoliate, dress, and get all my stuff to the car. I want to leave by 11:30 at the latest just in case there is traffic or anything to just give me some room (coffee maybe?) or if I can check in early. I’m panicking about sweating because I’m a sweater. I don’t want to be the girl with the big back sweat drip. In the email it says “conditioning for stage lights”. WTF is that!?
Weight 149.4 still not what I’d expected because I’ve been ON track all week. Not one sip of vodka, not one cheat anything and everything fit in my macros. Coach said no changes to macros and we check in again Wednesday and then start depleting for Peak Week. I’m a little worried about this since I work until 3 am Friday and Saturday so I might end up delirious with exhaustion like I have been feeling lately at work these past few weeks. It doesn’t matter, I have the whole week of the show off from work and all I have is a photoshoot where I get glammed up and show off my hard work, then my hair, polygraph, tan then SHOW DAY! Omg I’m so excited I kinda can’t even believe I’m really doing this and actually am not getting pulled out for not looking good enough (I made Malayna promise to tell me if I wouldn’t be ready because I don’t want to be the fat girl on stage).
Like whaaaaat!? Who IS THAT!? Thinking about where I started at 185 lbs in 2017 😱
I look at her like “BOO YOU ALREADY WON!”
Obviously I still like green hehe!
2 weeks out macros are staying the same at 1400 calories, 125 p, 135 c 40 f
Oh yea and my boyfriend cooked for me last night and omg its amazing
He deserves an award!
Anyway, next up will be peak week because I forgot to update this!
So last week I was full of doubt and fear and for some reason this week it’s disappeared. I still don’t feel ready or like I look ready. I feel like my waist is too big and my glute on my posing side is flat and weird but it’s too late to change posing sides. Having a hard time getting it to pop out because it’s also the side my back injury is on so I’m thinking that makes it weaker and not activating as much. I’m definitely going to have to use the bands to try to activate it more on leg day.
Surprisingly I’m not feeling as nervous this week. Malayna and I had a good poising session yesterday and I’m currently sitting in the sunshine outside Panera smelling all the deliciousness with my coffee because I feel like I just run on coffee right now.
I’ve still been super cold all the time so sitting out in the sun feels great! I’m going to go tanning a couple times (I know, bad) next week and the week of the show because it tightens the skin and it’s good to have a little base color before I get all fabulously orange. Hunger hasn’t been terrible this week, I had my check in today and am waiting to see what Malayna will say we are doing for macros. Breakfast has been my favorite meal of the day because I make French Toast with
Monday – Check in Day!
Finally broke 140 at 139.8!! I feel like at the end of every 10 lbs I hit a plateau. Like 149-142 went fast then I was stuck. Same at 151. Let’s gooooo! No changes to macros or cardio.
Monday check in posing:
Feeling good today! Pushing my first meal back to 12-1:00 so I don’t go to bed hungry, especially on nights I work and need more macros to get through the day. Car is all fixed! I did wake up with a massive migraine due to the incoming rain. But I got 30 minutes of cardio done with the dog, then went to pick up my name change paperwork, hit the gym, got a coffee, went to the social security office and Christmas Tree shop, then home for a nap and meal. Felt better but still not 100%. Finished my ab workout and cardio, made a protein cake for dinner and went to bed.
Feeling much better! Got 30 minutes of cardio done with the dog, met my friend Katie at her gym for back and biceps. Super helpful to catch up with her because she’s competed before! Also helped cardio go by having someone to chat with!
138.6 bummer we were on a roll. Didn’t have a 💩 yesterday or today yet though.
Didn’t sleep great, but I’m going for a massage at 11 then I’ll come home and eat and go to the gym. Helooooo ab lines! I almost have my middle line! Since I’m bikini I’m not looking for a 6 back, but the 3 major lines are important to me.
I chatted about my glute issue to my friend who competed before and she suggested I turn my hips and shoulders like a wrung out rag more. Woah difference! Thanks Katie!
What!? I’ve literally been following the plan exactly what is happening!? I think I need to make an adjustment. I didn’t sleep well last night and am up at 6:15 again. I have a ton of stuff to do today so I’m just getting up to get cardio done. I have to work until 2 am tonight so I’ll get a nap hopefully later, but it’s leg day and I have to go to the DMV for a new ID at 2:15 so I want to get my whole workout and cardio done asap so I can come home and nap. Frustrated and it’s only 7:50 because I expected to be below 137 today. Not happy.
Ok back in the right direction! Posing looked better yesterday to me and people at work last night noticed the difference even from last week. I slept in and woke up hungry after working late and finishing my last snack around midnight. I nibbled in a protein bar from like 11-12 and wasn’t super hungry at work because I brought chicken rice and asparagus with me. This morning I had some aggravation with trying to get my name changed on my credit cards, holy drap it’s literally harder than getting a new ID!
So I wanted to get some fasted cardio in but honestly I was so hungry I walked my dog for 20 minutes and had to come eat because I’m SO irritated with everything from all the cars coming in and out of my complex to it just being so people-y out and I’m not in the mood to be stared at and don’t want to socialize. It’s kinda windy again but not too bad, I might finish my last hour of cardio outside or break it up by doing some at the gym. I changed my breakfast from French toast which was higher carb and fat to oatmeal with egg whites, PB, cinnamon and protein powder because I’m trying to make macros last through the day. Working late nights and doing prep is HARD. Like I’m jealous of people with normal jobs! Ok enough ranting I’m going to go do cardio/ abs maybe some posing and be cranky haha!
So today I was having the biggest craving for my Mom’s homemade lemon squares! Normally I’d just text her and ask for the recipe, but since I’m on prep for a bikini contest….that’s a big no. So I got the new 1Up Nutrition Liquid Gold out and made a healthy version and OMG my taste buds are doing a happy dance!
Looks like it would be full of fat and sugar right? Wrong! Here’s how to make them!
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