So last week I was full of doubt and fear and for some reason this week it’s disappeared. I still don’t feel ready or like I look ready. I feel like my waist is too big and my glute on my posing side is flat and weird but it’s too late to change posing sides. Having a hard time getting it to pop out because it’s also the side my back injury is on so I’m thinking that makes it weaker and not activating as much. I’m definitely going to have to use the bands to try to activate it more on leg day.
Surprisingly I’m not feeling as nervous this week. Malayna and I had a good poising session yesterday and I’m currently sitting in the sunshine outside Panera smelling all the deliciousness with my coffee because I feel like I just run on coffee right now.
I’ve still been super cold all the time so sitting out in the sun feels great! I’m going to go tanning a couple times (I know, bad) next week and the week of the show because it tightens the skin and it’s good to have a little base color before I get all fabulously orange. Hunger hasn’t been terrible this week, I had my check in today and am waiting to see what Malayna will say we are doing for macros. Breakfast has been my favorite meal of the day because I make French Toast with
Monday – Check in Day!
Finally broke 140 at 139.8!! I feel like at the end of every 10 lbs I hit a plateau. Like 149-142 went fast then I was stuck. Same at 151. Let’s gooooo! No changes to macros or cardio.
Monday check in posing:
Feeling good today! Pushing my first meal back to 12-1:00 so I don’t go to bed hungry, especially on nights I work and need more macros to get through the day. Car is all fixed! I did wake up with a massive migraine due to the incoming rain. But I got 30 minutes of cardio done with the dog, then went to pick up my name change paperwork, hit the gym, got a coffee, went to the social security office and Christmas Tree shop, then home for a nap and meal. Felt better but still not 100%. Finished my ab workout and cardio, made a protein cake for dinner and went to bed.
Feeling much better! Got 30 minutes of cardio done with the dog, met my friend Katie at her gym for back and biceps. Super helpful to catch up with her because she’s competed before! Also helped cardio go by having someone to chat with!
138.6 bummer we were on a roll. Didn’t have a 💩 yesterday or today yet though.
Didn’t sleep great, but I’m going for a massage at 11 then I’ll come home and eat and go to the gym. Helooooo ab lines! I almost have my middle line! Since I’m bikini I’m not looking for a 6 back, but the 3 major lines are important to me.
I chatted about my glute issue to my friend who competed before and she suggested I turn my hips and shoulders like a wrung out rag more. Woah difference! Thanks Katie!
What!? I’ve literally been following the plan exactly what is happening!? I think I need to make an adjustment. I didn’t sleep well last night and am up at 6:15 again. I have a ton of stuff to do today so I’m just getting up to get cardio done. I have to work until 2 am tonight so I’ll get a nap hopefully later, but it’s leg day and I have to go to the DMV for a new ID at 2:15 so I want to get my whole workout and cardio done asap so I can come home and nap. Frustrated and it’s only 7:50 because I expected to be below 137 today. Not happy.
Ok back in the right direction! Posing looked better yesterday to me and people at work last night noticed the difference even from last week. I slept in and woke up hungry after working late and finishing my last snack around midnight. I nibbled in a protein bar from like 11-12 and wasn’t super hungry at work because I brought chicken rice and asparagus with me. This morning I had some aggravation with trying to get my name changed on my credit cards, holy drap it’s literally harder than getting a new ID!
So I wanted to get some fasted cardio in but honestly I was so hungry I walked my dog for 20 minutes and had to come eat because I’m SO irritated with everything from all the cars coming in and out of my complex to it just being so people-y out and I’m not in the mood to be stared at and don’t want to socialize. It’s kinda windy again but not too bad, I might finish my last hour of cardio outside or break it up by doing some at the gym. I changed my breakfast from French toast which was higher carb and fat to oatmeal with egg whites, PB, cinnamon and protein powder because I’m trying to make macros last through the day. Working late nights and doing prep is HARD. Like I’m jealous of people with normal jobs! Ok enough ranting I’m going to go do cardio/ abs maybe some posing and be cranky haha!